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Thursday, 28 May 2009

what the hell for?

why does she want me @ home wen all she does is sleep and bitches @ us 2 b quiet. she wonders why i leave and its exactly because of her, i cant stand living here with all this bullshit!!

always on my ass about one thing or another, clean this, and make me that...and BE QUIET!! those are her favorite words.

i cannot jus worry about me b/c i have 2 worry about everyone else,
i can't think
i can breathe

stuck in a hole in the ground with no where 2 turn.

Friday, 20 February 2009

parents who don't live up to that title

alright so here is the deal time and time again i see parents out w/ their kids and sometimes i wondered why they even bothered havin em if they dnt take care of em. 1 example

on v-day.. me, my bf and his family went 2 celebrate his dad's and bro's b-day. so we're @ red lobster(bad idea) and u kno how they have the fish tank w/ the lobsters in it, well this one was kinda low to the ground and it had no lid, so u kno how lil kids r. they were stickin those lil fingers in there. this dad who is like 5 feet away from his kid yells "dont stick ur finger in there" and the jus turns around. mind u, this place was packed so from where he was standing he couldn't really see his kid u kno enuf 2 watch him. so kids will b kids the lil one stuck his lil fingers in the water again along w/ a bunch of other kids who were doin it 2 (peer pressure) the hostess askes them politiely not too. it is as this point wen the "father" of the kid decides to go yell and say "if you're not gonna listen then we're going home" u know loud enuf for everyone pretty much to hear.ya this pissed me off! this kid had to b like 4 yrs old...u as a parent should b watching ur child to make sure they dnt do wat they r not supposed to. what gives him the right to blow up wen ur're not doin wat ur supposed 2 as a "parent" or adult, its called responsibility man!

Tuesday, 10 February 2009

she's bitter. i think i may b too.

trapped in a tiny house
with my menopausal mother
underground
one bed room
4 ppl
no
privacy
ever!

dealing w/ her SCREAMING, and BITCHING

this is my "dealing" with it, wishing i was out of this cage she tries 2 call a home
this rabbit's hole
where i have 2 step through shit just to get inside.

and act like i like it

(smile b polite, they're "our friends")........(except that they take advantage....)

SHHH dnt talk they'll hear u
SHHHH they might b sleeping
SHHHHH don't speak your mind, unless your opinion agree's w/ mine.

Wednesday, 04 February 2009

A few things that have been on tv.

Alright so I'm sure you have all heard of the Micheal Phelps pic, and the Christian Bale freak out, and the "controversy" over Jessica Simpson's weight gain. We will begin from bad to worse

Phelps' pic
Yes smoking pot is illegal, but I think the only reason why its an issue is b/c there is a pic and you can't blame him for that since it was taken from behind. I'm pretty sure if there was just someone goin around sayin "YEA PHELPS WAS SMOKIN OUT OF A BONG AT A COLLEGE PARTY!" it wouldn't be such an issue, it would be like oh so whats new cause no matter how bad it sounds it's expected that things like that go on at parties especially college ones. And y people are making such a big deal about his endorsements OH COMMON! seriously guys are ya kiddin me? unless it was stated in the contract or if his endorsements are not droppin him then just drop it. ok. he made his public apology...and he may even get charged can you forget about it and just move on???

Jessica's weight gain
Yea on entertainment tonight or Access Hollywood they literally called it a "controversy" alright i saw the pics and her outfit wasn't flattering but god it's not like in a year she went from 110-250 she just gained a lil weight. so she has a lil extra meet on her bones, it just means she is eating more. the big deal they made about this i think is stupid, she is still a beautiful girl and she has a great body. leave her alone, if she is happy w/ how she looks then these ppl need to stop.

Batman's on set freak out
Ok this for once is actually something worthwhile. I heard the whole fiasco on the radio and yea he definately lost his cool. The guy that accidentally stepped on the set while filming made a mistake, yea he should know not to and at one point Bale said something like "this is the second time u've done this" so i can understand the aggravation, but the way he yelled at the man and threatened him was definately uncalled for. dude was wrong, and i feel bad for the light man. and i think bale needs to b dealt with properly.

ALRIGHT THAT WAS MY VENT FOR THE WEEK.

Saturday, 24 January 2009

today...

well,
he told me today that his grandpa died. he seemed real down on the fone. the rest of the day i tried to focus on makin him not think about it since he still took me out, mostly tho cause he didn't wanna b @ home thinkin bout it. n e way i offered 2 go w/ him to the wake or funeral u kno 4 support but to be honest i don't wanna go. i hate going to these thing b/c i dnt kno how to act in these sad situations and be supportive and sad by nature i wanna b happy and make those around me happy. so i will go but if it was really up 2 me and not rude then i would just avoid the rest of his family for at least 2 or three weeks and see him on the weekends and act as if it never happened. what do i say wen i c his family im sry 4 ur loss..the cliche thing, it sucks cause it just sounds fake. i mean wat do i go do say it to his whole family these ppl i've met once or twice, will they believe me no i dnt think so. so i will b going 2 the wake the funeral no cause i have class and since its not immediate family its senseless to miss. so this is one of the very few situations wen u gotta do something u dnt wanna do..usually im stubborn enuff 2 get out of these things but nope not 2day.